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BOY!!!!!!!! It’s a Boy!!!!! WooHoo!!! I am very excited to be having a little boy! Joe knew from the very beginning that we where going to have a boy. Lots of people where telling him other wise! He told me once that if someone said it was a girl just to slap them. Haha He said after the fact that he just had a feeling, well he was right. About two weeks before we found out I was pregnant; Joe had a dream that we had a baby boy. That dream was right on! So technically, I was pregnant when he had that dream, we just didn’t know it yet!

My sister on the other had refused to believe it was a boy! She thought from day one it was a girl. She had a name picked out for her and everything. In stead of calling him it, I would call him baby or my child. She would get “mad” and say SHE has a name you know! Natalie almost convinced me it was a girl! But I really had no feelings one way or another! No “mother’s intuition” or anything. So I was very relieved to have found out!

I’m also very glad that he decided that he didn’t need to be modest. There was no doubt he’s a boy! It looks like he was sitting on a copier!

One thing now that can stop is people saying “you’re going to love whatever you have”. Well duh! For some reason that just bugged me. I know I would have loved a boy or a girl. I did want a boy more but I would have been just as happy to be having a girl.

Everything is still going very well. He is moving like crazy. I can tell he has grown a lot in just the last few weeks. You can see my stomach move when he moves. Sometimes I can feel him poking me with is head or something and I can poke him back and feel his head. It actually really creeps me out! I can’t stop and think about it for too long. I have sometime living inside of me!! Its awesome, don’t get me wrong. But it’s creepy too. I get worried too when I haven’t felt him move for a while, so I shake my stomach a little. It usually gets him to move a little. So then I feel better and will leave him alone. I also have a home Doppler, so I can hear his heart beat at anytime. That thing is AMAZING. I love it.

Look at that sweet little profile!! He has Joe's head and nose. And I have a slight feeling he is going to have red hair. If not red, bleach blond. Just like his daddy when he was little!!

I love you already Lincoln!!!

It's Alive!!!

It’s alive!! Yes I have started to feel the baby move!! Its so crazy! I started feeling him about a few weeks ago. At first I really wasn’t sure if it was the baby or if I was just digesting. Then I went to work on Tuesday, the doctor that works there asked me if I have felt her yet. I said “I don’t think so, but maybe”…haha. He asked me a few more questions then said, “Well I’m sure you’ll feel it before you know it.” The first patient we went in to see, I was sitting there and felt like a popcorn popping feeling slightly to the left of my belly button! It didn’t feel like flutters. It felt like popcorn. And I just knew it was the baby! From there on I have felt her move everyday! Still feeling like popcorn is popping in my stomach!

Last night was the most I have ever felt him move. He was just going to town. It kinda left like he was doing laps. Which is fine, its fun to feel her moving around. So Joe got home from school/rugby practice so I had him see if he could feel it moving around. We have tired before to see if he could feel but it was so random that I would feel her for a few minutes then he would put his hand on my stomach and she would stop. So he put his hand on my stomach waiting for just a minute then pulled his hand off and went “Ah”!! His face was pretty hilarious! He said “that’s so weird!!! Its like in those possession movies! You have something alive and moving inside of you!” I think he kinda finds the whole process weird. He thought the first ultrasound was weird. I’m sure he is going to fin the one on Monday weirder! It’s actually going to look like a baby! But he does get a big smile on his face when we hear the heartbeat. Its cute.

We haven’t bought much for this little one yet. We have gotten a lot of stuff from people, which is amazing. Joe’s mom has given us lots of clothes. We have a boy tote, a girl tote and a neutral tote. My brother brought us a TON of stuff too. A pack and play, swing, clothes, bassinette, bedding, etc. Granted we may not use it all but we have it incase we want it! The one thing we have gotten is our CRIB! Also, a changing table. Woo! We got it from Karen Montague aka Karen Renburg. It’s a cherry wood and in amazing condition. So we are pretty excited about that. This picture is of it up with all of her bedding. We don’t have it up yet and I’m waiting to see if it’s a boy or a girl to buy my bedding. Which I already have on my baby registry! (Amazon.com) But I wanted to show you what it looks like.

So Monday is the day! Boy or Girl! Pink or Blue!! Hopefully this little one decides it wants to be good and cooperate!!

(Sorry, I switched off between him/her. Since I don't know I don't want to call the child "it" everytime)

Whelp! I'm Pregnant!!

It’s true. I’m pregnant. This was a pretty big shock for me. I was in denial for the few weeks. Even after I went to the doctor for the first time I was in denial. I kinda felt bad because I really didn’t want to be pregnant. I felt like a horrible person. I felt like Joe was really excited but didn’t want to show it because I was not. This was just not in our plans at all! Not for a few more years! But once I saw that little alien I was in love. Every time I look at my ultrasound I just smile. So needless to say, I’m excited now!! We are both excited now.

I had this small feeling that I could be pregnant. My boobs starting hurting, not bad but I could notice it. So I took out my handy period app, since sometimes a day or two before I start my period my boobs will hurt. It said I still had 5 days until I was supposed to start. That was a little weird for me. It didn’t help that my co-worker kept teasing me saying I was pregnant and she was excited so we could be pregnant together! Well, I waited a few days. Then that’s all I could think about. I was telling myself that I wasn’t! So, to take my mind off of it and to give me peace of mind (so I thought) I took a test. I’m glad they come in packs of three. We already had one since around Christmas time last year I kept getting sick after I ate anything. So we got some just to see. It was negative (obviously) but it left me with two more. So I took it and sat there as two little pink lines showed up. Very bright pink lines might I add. None of this, well I think there’s a line there. It was bright pink. My heart starting pounding and I started shaking. So after a few minutes I went into the living room. Joe was sleeping out the couch. He woke up to me standing there with my mouth wide open. He looked at me and said “are you going to sneeze?” I said “NO!”, showed him the test, then ran into the bed room crying. I could hear him look at the instructions in the box and told me that I was going to take the last time. But I told him I would just take it in the morning. And same thing, two bright pink lines!

So far my pregnancy has gone pretty smooth. Not much morning sickness at all. I’ve gotten sick a few times, by gotten sick I mean lost my lunch. Even then I wasn’t nauseas at all. The only food that made me sick was sushi. Funny thing, I don’t eat sushi. But my pregnant co-worker was in her sushi kick. And watching her eat it, made me want to barf. Other than that, I can eat anything. Up until about 11 weeks all I wanted to do was eat. And in the first few weeks, if I started not to feel good I would eat and then I was fine. Then all of a sudden I wasn’t hungry at all!! Now at 18 weeks, all I want to do is eat, again!!!

 

Three of us at work are pregnant. I feel like everyone is pregnant! At first it made my pregnancy not feel as special since everyone else is too. But it still is. And its kinda fun to be pregnant with everyone else! We can call complaint to each other!

Oh, also I got another job! I still work as an FOC at Physical Therapy of Idaho. But they therapists works 4 tens. So Tuesday is their day off. I was working on Tuesdays to man the phones and the walk ins but I was getting so bored I wanted to stab myself in the eye. And it was really making me not like my job. And I LOVE my job. So I started looking for a Tuesday job. Or like a Tuesday/Thursday job. Well, my sister had sent me an e-mail with an MA position for only Tuesday s!! I e-mailed them my resume a few days later I had an interview and about two weeks after that, they offered me the job!! So now I get to do my MA thing on Tuesdays. I really missed drawing blood. And I still got it!! Lots of people keep telling me that it was the best blood draw they have had in a long time. Couldn’t even feel me poke them  I never get tired of hearing how awesome I am!! Haha

Also, being 25 isn’t so bad...I guess…haha

 

Quarter Life Crisis

In just a few short months I'm going to be...25. Yes, admitting it is the first step. I'm having a really hard time with this. For some reason typing this makes me want to cry. Anyway, I have found that I'm at a point in my life where I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of it. I know I don't want to be a receptionist for the rest of it. Even though I really like my job, that's the problem, its a job not a career. I have been looking at going back to school but for what? Nurse? Well, I'm a certified medical assistant and that has gotten me no where. I know nursing I could get a job easier. Pharmacist? I would love it, but the more I look at the classes the more I think I'm not smart enough to be one. But then I think about going back to school and I start doing the math. I would take me what 4-8 years to finish...I would be in the 30's by then...that's old! Even though its not. I have to step back and think if I didn't get done until I'm 30, I would still have 30+ years of working ahead of me! That's a long time to be working. So I better be doing something I want to be doing! And making good money. I'm really tired of being broke. I want to go shopping!! I'm tired of the same old clothes and shoes. I need new pants really bad! Sorry, that's a completely different matter. I feel like I'm wondering down a road that's leading me no where. I know things will get better but when? I'm really tired of waiting. The problem with a quarter life crisis apposed to a mid life crisis is, at least during my mid life crisis I would have money to go crazy and buy a sports car or something! But quarter life, I have no money to go buy a sports car, let alone anything for that matter!! This leads me to something else that has been bothering me...

Everyone is having babies.


I know that this stage in life, people reproduce. Either they meant to or not! I go through phases where I want babies right now, I want them in a few years and I never want them. It changes weekly. I'm super happy for everyone who is expecting but its just weird for me. Its weirder when people younger than me are having babies. Even more weird people younger than me having their Second baby. Or people that have been married for like two seconds. I know surprises happen but I also know you can plan things too. I dunno. I really haven't been able to put into words how I actually feel about it cuz I'm not jealous, I'm happy for them. UGH I DON'T KNOW, its just WEIRD. I have never been good putting thoughts into words on paper and sometimes its every frustrating.

Ok, I guess that's it for now. I'm sorry. I know posts without pictures are boring but I only have pictures of my kitties. Or myself. When I get bored at work I take pictures of myself with my phone. Here, I'll leave you this pictures of Remy. She is our most mischievous kitty. Sometimes its annoying (mostly when we are trying to sleep) but other times she cant make us bust up laughing. We have decided that her thoughts sound like the squirrel from Over the Hedge. Talking really fast then "hey, whats that over there!?"